I walked into a well lit room that had white walls; the room was empty with brown hardwood floors which i could feel creaking under my bare feet. I saw a window across from the door that i just walked though and i approached it slowly. There were trees swaying in the wind outside, but something was off about the trees and the way they danced. They didnt feel real; they felt like something else disguised as trees. There was also a sense or feeling of nothingness(?) coming in from outside. I don’t quite know how to find the right words to explain this, but we will go with nothingness for now.
A closet or perhaps another room was to left of me. I heard whispering voices coming from behind the door. It sounded like a conversation between two women at first, then at least 6. It transformed into what sounded like ancient encantations with a bit of melody mixed in from humming. it drew me in and piqued my curiosity. At this point i became aware that i was dreaming and looked around the room energetically, for answers.
I started to feel an energetic exchange of answers to my curiosity. The exchange made me dizzy and I ended up leaning my back against the same wall the closet door was on. I couldn’t see anyone or anything in the room with me but I could feel it. I started to get more dizzy, close my eyes and I let my weight slide down the wall.
The wishpering…. the conversation… like crones. It felt like crones. The women, they were many but still only one.. I still cant wrap my head around it.
I asked “who are you?” When my butt finally came to rest on the floor. I opened my eyes to the empty room but then i got yanked backwards as if i was sitting in a chair and someone yanked on the back of it, causing me to flip back wards. As soon as that feeling came another threw me forward; suddenly my head, my brain, my consciousness was somewhere else while the rest of me was still in that room, against the wall.
It was like the universe split and i was in two places at once. I saw clouds, like space dust, almost; glittering ashes that moved and took form… I’ve never seen something so beautiful and so terrifying all at once! the words dust and ashes don’t even begin to describe what this thing was, but we will say dust for now.
This, dust, was moving. I guess it was most like how an otter swims under water… swirling… but extremely dense with this nothingness. I honestly can’t find the words to explain it. Again, we will stick with dust for now, haha!
The dust showed me faces. They werent clear but focus made them so through the chaos. Some faces were not human and some humanoid; those that were human: some of them weren’t recognizable like complete strangers, some FELT energetically familiar but physically weren’t. The only face I recognized inside the chaos that was this stardust… was my fathers.
I said, “dad?” His face faded… then I quickly yelled, “who are you?” I became confused because i lucid dream quite often and when i do, i am aware that I'm dreaming and can control my actions inside my dreams and consciously build outcomes and situations i want to see. In this dream, i suddenly lost all control but was still aware that i was dreaming. It felt a bit like sleep paralysis because i couldnt wake up or snap out of it.
The whispering which previously came from behind the door was circling all around me, getting louder and louder, then one voice came through stronger than the others, as if the mass whispering built up the energy it needed to speak loudly with an echo and said “I am you and you are me.”
The faces disappeared all together and suddenly my head left the other dimension as if a portal snapped closed and the dust was floating and twisting in front of me in this room.. still on the floor against the wall and aware that im dreaming but letting it unfold how it wanted, to feed my curiosity.
This dust came closer to me.. i said curiously, “I am you.” the dust started to change into a dense physical being. I continued to say, “you are me.” Again with slight inquisition, while studying this thing take shape.
As the shape took form i slowly found myself looking back at myself. I was stunned, even more curious as to what was going on. Then for a third time, my other self (dust thing) said, “I am you” while at the same time I felt lead and drawn to say, “you are me.” our voices blended together becoming one like the many, suddenly the room fell from underneath me and I felt like I was doing forward somersaults inside of this vast but extremely heavy nothingness.
I could feel this pulling and buzzing throughout my entire body which started at the crown of my head and exploded at the tips of every nerve as it traveled it’s way down my nervous system.. I felt like I was being sucked out of my body…. you know what it looks like, up close, when velcro is ripped apart? imagine what it FEELS like for the velcro to be pulled apart… how the soft side stretches because its tangled in the knotty side of the velcro… that’s how it felt, my soul was the soft side of velcro and my body was the knotty side.
I honestly felt like my body was being hijacked.. it scared me and i said, “no your fucking not. I am me!” And then a sudden burst of blackness shot through everything and I jumped awake. I was sweating and my body was tingling with pins and needles. Im pretty sure i screamed out loud in my waking life because my cats scattered like roaches when i quickly sat up.
